ABOUT ME
If you’re looking for a formal, gallery-curated artist, you’re on the wrong website. As much as I love being an artist, learning new things, and doing "artist things", my main mission is just to convince at least one person to start.
I occationally do list things for purchase that I have created, but at the end of the day my passion is learning alongside all of you.
The short version of how we got here: life got completely chaotic, and making things / creating things was the only constant keeping me tethered to sanity. Through every dumb, impulsive idea and late-night sketch, something clicked that completely shifted how I view creativity.
WHY?
I’ve made art for as long as I can remember, but high school did what high school does best: made me deeply insecure about being the "weird art kid." So, I buried it.
In 2019, I picked it back up. I drew every single day, testing mediums, sketching concepts, working in secret, without showing a soul. I kept everything hidden until recently, when three realities finally hit me:
1. We live in a world where if you aren't immediately incredible at something on your first attempt, you’re conditioned to hide in the shadows and never try.
2. We used to only compare our progress to people in our local circle. Now, the moment you open an app, you’re comparing your day one sketch to the top 0.01% of artists on the planet.
3. There’s an old story about a master artist and his apprentice. The master had the apprentice place a painting in the town square with a sign: "If you see a mistake, circle it." By evening, the canvas was covered in red marks; the apprentice was devastated. The next day, they put the exact same painting out with a different sign: "If you see a mistake, pick up the brush and fix it." When they returned, the painting was completely untouched.
That story is the internet in a nutshell. Most critics are just people holding markers who would never have the courage to pick up a brush themselves.
HOW DID YOU GET THE NAME?
The name Only Ever Abandoned comes from a quote by Oliver Tree: "Art is never finished, only ever abandoned."
For the longest time, perfectionism was my biggest bottleneck. I fell into the trap so many creators get stuck in, believing that if a piece wasn't completely immaculate (which it never is), it wasn't worth sharing, or even finishing. But real art is messy, unpredictable, and rarely mirrors the pristine, untouchable version inside your head. You work on it, you pour everything into it until you can't stand staring at it anymore, and then you have to let it go so you can throw yourself into the next one.
Oliver’s death hit me harder than I care to admit, and I think it's because I looked up to him for his creative philosophy, especially his constant reminder that tomorrow is never promised, so start today. His drumbeat message of "just start" is something that needs to be yelled a whole lot louder in a world paralyzed by fear and overthinking.
This space exists because of that exact urgency. It’s a commitment to creating without preciousness, putting pen to paper, embracing the raw, imperfect drafts, and refusing to let fear keep ideas trapped in a sketchbook. You don't need permission, and you definitely don't need to be an expert. You just have to start.
THE PROJECT
So, What Is Only Ever Abandoned?
It’s an evolving studio, a digital scratchpad, and a rejection of the idea that an artist has to stick to one neat little box.
I work across whatever medium grabs me, hyper detailed ballpoint portraits, raw graphite sketches, physical paintings, and hand-sketching custom fine jewellery (which is my actual job).
This website is where you’ll find original works, limited art prints, and practical tools I’ve engineered to help bridge the gap between digital drafting and physical mediums, because my actual goal here is just to help people start.
I’m not an art professor, and I’m definitely not claiming to hold the secrets to the universe. I’m just an artist putting everything on display: the refined finished pieces, the prints I’m proud of, and the messy projects I completely suck at while I’m learning them in real-time, in the hope it's a reality checkpoint to convince one person to just try.
Start making things before you think you're ready, because let’s be real, none of us really know what we’re doing anyway.